Idk what's with my english vocabulary.

hello... so ayun idk talaga why naffeel ko na napaka-limited lang ng english vocabulary ko even after being so invested din naman sa mga books/textbooks/any text ever since i was a kid. likeee?? naalala ko pa dati na tuwing ginagamit ko phone ni mama tas walang load, babasahin ko lang yung mga text sa fb while scrolling kahit walang mga pics na nalabas. i really love reading at tsaka maayos naman pagbabasa ko up until today, nakakaintindi rin naman nang maayos pero IDK WHY kapag ako na yung magc-construct ng mga words, wala akong maisip like huhuhuhu ewaaaan. my mind is so f*cked up talaga T^T (this is my first time writing here though)