How did you accept you can never drink again?

I’m really finding it hard to come to terms with the fact I can never drink again. I know the absolute damage it causes to me and everything in my life but I’m finding the hardest part about staying sober is accepting I’ll never be able to have another beer , another sunset cocktail. It’s super messed up because my life’s a lot better without the poison but it’s playing major tricks on my brain and also I’m mourning the fact I can’t regulate or drink like a normal / responsible user. Is this just me?