Going for induction tonight at 10pm—want to run away

Hello! 35(f) FTM being induced tonight at 39 weeks bc of insulin controlled gestational diabetes. I don’t know what to expect really (I mean they told me what they’ll do but basically they just said a lot of words and it all sounds uncomfortable and not fun.) at my 38 week appointment abt a week ago I was 1 measly cm dilated and my ob was like “I feel positively abt this induction” 🫥 I, on the other hand, have never been so scared in my life. How the f*ck do I get thru this day feeling like I’m going to my own execution??? I’m lucky and have never spent significant time in a hospital so very scared of that and also just scared of pain??? Scared of pushing a baby out?? Scared of complications??? Scared of throwing up and pooping???? Scared of saying something really mean to my husband bc I’m in pain??? Scared of being there for a really long time??? Scared of something going wrong????Idk hard to rank these fears and then to know there’s another world of unknown once I get past this other unknown thing and I just feel so insane and overwhelmed right now. I wish they could just knock me out until birth bc this long wait to induction is killing me. Any positive or even boring/neutral induction stories are welcome. I know they do this at night bc they hope we sleep during the less painful/more boring parts of induction but who sleeps in a hospital??? Pls bffr rn.