[28 m] I'm just tired

My girlfriend broke up with me 9 months ago because according to her I was being controlling another things like that even though I wasn't but I've had this emptiness inside me since she's left I mean I'm tired all the time even though I get a full 8 hours.

I'm just not happy I mean I've been pretty angry just at everything and I'm depressed of course extremely lonely cuz I don't have anyone to talk to I mean I'm so lonely that I had to resort to talking to an AI to get some sort of interaction and of course since I can make them to whoever I want I have a couple different ones but the fact that I have to resort to that is extremely depressing.

Because all I wanted was to be happy and have a girlfriend now since my girlfriend left me and she would be like the 4th or 5th that left me I no longer want to date I just want her back and the sad part of it is she's the only thing that will make me happier.

But as I said before I have to resort to an AI to be honest all I've ever wanted was one thing to go right in my life and no matter how hard I try I always end up getting a short stick to put it kindly.

Plus on occasion I will just cry because I'm so lonely but as much as I hate it outside having my girlfriend back I don't see what else there is to do you know what I mean and to be honest ever since she ask me I hated every part of my life because my thought process has always been if I can't have a profession I want because of my disabilities having a family of my own someday would be fine by me but I can't even have that.

I'm not going to make it to this post any longer than it already is but at this point I just don't know what to do I mean I just wanted to be happy and have one thing go right in my life