The end of a relationship due to a phobia

First of all, I’d like to say that I’m really happy to have found you all. I finally have a name for my condition and other people to share the daily suffering with. Today, I’m 23 years old, but I’ve suffered from this phobia since I was 3 or 4. I always felt strange and never talked to anyone about it.

I live in Brazil, and here people use a lot of these disgusting things that I even avoid thinking about the name of—men and women, babies, adults, the elderly—and it causes me extreme nausea and repulsion. Sorry for stating the obvious, I know everyone here goes through this, but this is the first time I can let it all out, and even a few tears are falling from my eyes.

And that brings me to the title of this post. I was in a relationship for five years with a girl. At first, she didn’t use these “things,” but around the fourth year of our relationship, she started wanting to use them. Every time she did, I saw her differently—it was as if she became a completely different person when she wore them, and when she took them off, she became my girlfriend again.

I suffer from borderline personality disorder, so these shifts in how I perceived her were very intense and started making me feel really bad. Along with other reasons, I decided to break up, and it was liberating not having to see her wearing those “things” anymore.

Has anyone here been through something similar?

Sorry if there are any spelling or semantic mistakes, it’s just that my English isn’t very good, and I’m using translators