A little pest called limerence

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A few people have asked me what I did to combat limerence. For me, that was grounding myself in the present moment. Ask yourself where you’re at, who’s around you, pay attention to your surroundings and sensations of your body that you usually ignore.

I remember the first time I did this. I was out at dinner with my cousins yet, I was having a fantasy. I had to pay attention to what I was doing. I noticed the booth I was sitting in beneath my left hand. The weight of the fork I was holding. Etc… just stuff like that. Catch yourself in the moment when you’re thinking of that person or thing. This is what worked for me…

I also watched a lot of self help videos and journaled. My favorite channels to watch were HealthyGamerGG, Crappy Childhood Fairy, Dr.Gabor Mate, Heide Priebe and Success chasers.

I’ve come to realize every single “crush” I’ve ever had was just limerence. I was so obsessed with the idea of someone that they took over my entire mind. At 25 years of age, I’ve never actually liked someone or been in love. Of course I’ve never been in a relationship either but that’s just me I guess.

But I’ve been working on myself and changing the way I think. I still have ways to go but I’ve made so much progress. I stopped thinking obsessively about any man my mind decides to latch onto. And I’ve been doing good! I haven’t had a crush since May of 2024 lol.

But recently, a coworker I enjoy talking to actually expressed interest in me but I curved them because I still have work to do on myself. I’m also struggling with health issues so I know it’s not wise to be involved with someone. So they stepped back and so did I but now why do I find myself smiling? Why am I dreaming of them now?

It came out of nowhere too… wtf. The fantasies are coming back lmfao. Is this limerence again? Did I become desperate?