Prediabetes just decided out of nowhere to become diabetes. They dropped the pre and I am so upset

With myself! Dammit I tried so hard to diet my way back to normal blood sugars. I started cutting back on the crap in Jan of 2024 my hail was to lose enough to be able to walk all day and not be in pain. We went to the Bahamas and I was easily able to walk and swim with no issues. So far total weight loss was113 lbs. From Jan 2024. After all that work my sugars start going up and none of my meds work which means any metformin I take probably won't work or will stop working. I have proven that before when I had gestational diabetes in 2002. Once my sugar begins to rise above a certain number everything just stops working and takes days to work again.

I have gastroparesis so that may account for some of it. Diagnosed 10 years ago. The prediabetes is what gave it to me. Now I have diabetic seizures. I had one last week and I am still really struggling with my memories and brain as a whole. I have lost a lot of my memory too, it's like I know it happened but I don't feel like it was me it was happening too like it is someone else. My memories are from the early 2k. Again post haze junk I was told. My doctor kindly ordered the gen com I thinks it's called G7 the thing that you stick in your arm and constantly monitor your sugars. I called the pharmacy and they said they were gonna hold it cause it's $1400 to buy. I laughed my ass off I mean really? I definitely need the 24 hour monitoring but I can't afford hundreds of dollars what a week? Fuck no!

I am hoping it will go down a bit using my health ins. But because of my er visit haven't submitted the bill to my ins means my deductable hasn't been meant so my meds won't be super cheap I may have to pay $600 for it. I will switch plans if I have too. Next year I am not paying out of my ass like this again. I mean I expected to see my doc a couple times and get my meds every month not use my entire deductable in one visit not even a month after I get it lmao. Okay I am done if you read this thank you. I have been bitching like crazy on reddit all day long mainly cause I am frustrated. That's it. I am done 💗