Feeling old at 23

I just turned 23 on the 21st of last month, I think the weeks leading up to my birthday was the first time I really sat down each night and thought, damn I’m really aging. Cause after 21 what’s there to look forward to besides the harsh realities of life right? I found my family’s old digital camera from like 2012-2014 something like that, and my parents looked noticeably younger in the pictures, that shit crushed me not gonna lie, my dad turns 60 this year, my mom turns 55. And it’s just soul crushing realizing I wasn’t the only one getting older.

I went through so much from 18 to now (so much my whole life really coming from a 3rd world country) but 23 feels different, still young as anyone older would say but with a more mature prefrontal cortex in comparison to like a 19 year old (I mention 19 cause I feel like 19 year olds be doing anything😭) It’s just been bittersweet, i know one day I’ll blink and just wish I was 23 again. I’m the happiest, most content I’ve been in 5+ years, yet there’s a deep sorrow about life itself within me.

I just wanna do this life shit right.