after years of episodes and medication are you at least a little more in control

as the title says above. i find that even though i have whims i don’t necessarily indulge in them. so am i faking bipolar if i don’t completely lose inhibition. i still feel the energy and mood swings just the impulsivitely has died down.

other question: how does mood swings feel for you? do you feel one constant mood the whole day or do you feel many through out the day? obviously this would be in conjecture with other symptoms as i find myself being happy most of the time then getting angry the next then anxious on top of hearing voices.