How can I expect him to do this every day

I’m coming out of remission. I haven’t had an episode since 2014 but In the past year and a half it’s getting worse and worse.

I’ve been with my husband for 11 years. I love him more than anything else in the world.

I shield him from most of the shit that goes on in my head because I know it’s not healthy for him. I mask almost as much around him as I do my coworkers.

But this disease is wearing me down. It’s hard to work full time, cope with this illness, and mask 100% of the time. I’m tired and I’m starting to not be the best wife.

I hate living with me. I do it every day all day and I wouldn’t wish it on my worst enemy. How can I ask someone I love to do it day in and day out for the rest of our lives?