I'm heterosexual, but I find the idea of Tony's hand running up my thigh while we watch movies in the darkness of his home theater to be sexually thrilling

I'm talking about a casual movie viewing with someone you respect, looking over at him in the glow of the projector light and being taken by that specific stare another straight guy gives you that sends chills down your spine, followed by the sensation of his hands molesting your body. It isn't gay, nor particularly erotic. It's a magical moment. At the core, these feelings are not part of me naturally, and have been placed there by a combination of David Chase's writing and Gandolfini's portrayal of a powerful man, which result in platonic feelings reaching new depths. I'm only attracted to women but I am interested in finding a father figure to hug, to kiss, to taste, and to look in the eyes as l drink from his milk bottle. Not something I'd actually do - just a concept to get off on.