I think I’m falling apart.

I’m a teaching intern, in the final section of my internship. I know this is not a unique feeling, but I’m tearing at the seams. I am working towards a teaching job in a world I do not recognize. Outside of Trump potentially dissolving the Department of Education, changing expectations to erase white peoples’ crimes, and getting rid of Genocide Education (which is crucial now more than ever considering the U.S. funded genocide in Palestine). My mentor is not worried and thinks that “he can’t do that much damage” but he already is. I am also scared of how expensive everything is, how poor I am, and how quickly things are ramping towards the end. Climate change was a big stressor of mine while I was in high school and I have seen 0 meaningful change since. I am nearly certain there is no going back at this point and I am scared for my future and my potentially students. America is crumbling and a lot of poor people who can’t get out will get stuck under the rubble. Please don’t tell me to just be positive, to stop looking at new laws passing, or to vote for the change I want to see. The change I want to see will not be enacted by any of the cowards that call themselves Democrats. We need to do something outside of our shitty system. Sorry for the rant. I hope someone else can relate to this.