Got my heart broken at 30
I know it's a long post, I am tired its 2:30, and I cant sleep
She is my best friends cousin and her mother approached regarding marriage. She is very attractive and loud, a direct opposite of mine, an introvert. She has had 2 relationship in total, became physical in both. I was a virgin. I had a spidey tingle everytime I interacted with her. I had to make her spit it out. Don't get me wrong, I was not angry because she has had sex with 2 people before, just that she decided to hide it from me. Let's be honest, getting a virgin in this day and age is not possible and I wanted somebody experienced as well. Thing is my spidey sense did not stop tingling and we fought and she kept on saying there is nothing between us anymore (the second guy). it made me uneasy. I never checked her phone in the 8 months we have known each other but she checked mine. Today, I did and my heartbeat was off the charts, my hands were shaking and all my fears came true. She sent her photos wearing sarees, she said and I quote
"Rahul, me(false name) mere pe false allegations laga raha ha main tang aa chuki hu"
"Main tere se alag reh nhi paa rahi hu" and this one had a heart symbol from him.
Her reasons? He was threatening me ki I will break the marriage, and I will get him murdered. I did not mean anything by this, I had to say all these because I was afraid. Uhmm Excuse me? đ
I don't know what is wrong with the young generation these days, is love so cheap? I am too old to be involved in such drama, I was supposed to get married, what happened? đđ¤Ŗ I am 30 already, I can't even cry on my mothers lap anymore. She is too old for this. I gave my virginity to her man and it was a big deal for me . No wonder it felt so bad. I thought why does sex feel so bad? My teenage fantasies were burnt to a crisp. đ
Her parents had no Idea about all this and they are devastated. Her mother whom I admire is now begging me, it feels so bad I can't even express in words. And even she is crying saying "itna jaldi rishta kaise todh de rahe ho", "main tumhi se shaadi karungi"
Please advise, I am ao lost.
I know it's a long post, I am tired its 2:30, and I cant sleep
She is my best friends cousin and her mother approached regarding marriage. She is very attractive and loud, a direct opposite of mine, an introvert. She has had 2 relationship in total, became physical in both. I was a virgin. I had a spidey tingle everytime I interacted with her. I had to make her spit it out. Don't get me wrong, I was not angry because she has had sex with 2 people before, just that she decided to hide it from me. Let's be honest, getting a virgin in this day and age is not possible and I wanted somebody experienced as well. Thing is my spidey sense did not stop tingling and we fought and she kept on saying there is nothing between us anymore (the second guy). it made me uneasy. I never checked her phone in the 8 months we have known each other but she checked mine. Today, I did and my heartbeat was off the charts, my hands were shaking and all my fears came true. She sent her photos wearing sarees, she said and I quote
"Rahul, me(false name) mere pe false allegations laga raha ha main tang aa chuki hu"
"Main tere se alag reh nhi paa rahi hu" and this one had a heart symbol from him.
Her reasons? He was threatening me ki I will break the marriage, and I will get him murdered. I did not mean anything by this, I had to say all these because I was afraid. Uhmm Excuse me? đ
I don't know what is wrong with the young generation these days, is love so cheap? I am too old to be involved in such drama, I was supposed to get married, what happened? đđ¤Ŗ I am 30 already, I can't even cry on my mothers lap anymore. She is too old for this. I gave my virginity to her man and it was a big deal for me . No wonder it felt so bad. I thought why does sex feel so bad? My teenage fantasies were burnt to a crisp. đ
Her parents had no Idea about all this and they are devastated. Her mother whom I admire is now begging me, it feels so bad I can't even express in words. And even she is crying saying "itna jaldi rishta kaise todh de rahe ho", "main tumhi se shaadi karungi"
Please advise, I am ao lost.