Existential OCD
This theme sucks. And it’s causing suicidal ocd.
I don’t enjoy sunsets anymore. Looking at the clouds. I don’t enjoy talking about space or anything related. I’ve developed dpdr. Life feels so weird and meaningless. Nothing makes sense. Why are we on earth living here?? We are living with not knowing why we are here?? Religions seems like I’d be lying to myself. There’s no certainty with religion. I need facts, unfortunately. I feel like if I went into religion it would be a delusion. I don’t want to have this nihilistic mindset:( it’s torturing. I’m filled with these thoughts no joke every waking minute. It’s tortuous. I really am afraid I’ll have this forever.