(Potential TW) Realising I have dysphoria around my period

For a long time I didn't think I experienced dysphoria because I imagined it very differently from how I experience it.

I would read about other people's struggles with their body and how it does things against their will. I would read their descriptions and feel empathetic but not exactly relate. They would say things like, "this is wrong" "why is this happening" "this is incorrect".

I struggle with similar thoughts but I thought dysphoria was more than that. Or rather, I created a singular idea of how dysphoria manifests instead of realising it is different for everyone.

My period is coming up and there's nothing I can do. I'm plagued with the thoughts of how this is wrong. How my body does this one thing that I don't identify with. I just cope and manage.

Before I knew I was nonbinary I really tried to embrace my period. Tried to develop a better relationship with it. But it never stuck.

I feel doomed. The options to stop my period are not viable for me as they would mess with my already messy hormones.

I just needed to vent about it. I love my body, I don't want to change it. I am just struggling with this one part. This "curse".