Keep Rubbing My Eyes

hello all.

I recently found out I had Keratoconus a month ago from the doctors and they told me to stop rubbing my eyes. I am also getting CXL and am on a waiting list for it, the average wait time is around 3-4 months.

I have tried my best to stop rubbing my right eye, which the CXL will take place on, as well as my left eye. The doctor advised me to stop but I just can't, as soon as I rub once it feels so good and then I'll start rubbing vigourously until I feel satisfied.

I'm so upset now because I feel like I'll keep rubbing and have worsen my Keratoconus even more, and I'm just rubbing my eyes more and more it's making me so upset.

Are there any tips or advice guys have so that I can stop rubbing my eyes in the coming months until I get a CXL appointment.

Thank You!