New to Kemetic

Hello everyone, so I've been perusing, and I figured I'd pick up the courage to share my experience. I am a Christian or something between that and Catholic. And I didn't really get infected with the hard fanatic puritan. I always had a fascination with Anubis, Anpu as I've come to learn. From drawing and tracing him in 7th grade to college, in phases it seemed like. I always liked him and even got a bunch of mythology statues. (Which in my era of religious panic I put them somewhere idk now)

Anyway, so I've known of him. And I guess where mine is a little weird is it was budding with my sexuality. I'll admit he is a big factor. And part of the reason I started on this path a few weeks ago was doing one of those erotic hypno files "pan satyr experience" and pan didn't really ring with me too much and I subbed the only time his name is said with Anubis.

I was beginning to look into other beliefs. And I even dabbled with RPing my OC with an Anubis bot for fiction, it was really nice. But I started really looking up Anubis, I once again thinking it's some kind of phase. But I felt more comfortable with him? I was afraid he was just the grim reaper Egypt flavor, always bad news and only dead things. But I noticed multiple people from here and beyond saying how caring, loving, and transformative he is, especially for helping you walk through your own psyche which when you have OCD can be a nightmare.

And as of today I decided to put him up there right below the jman. I even started my Altar and gave what I think is my first offering, a small bar of dark chocolate.

I just hope this is an actual calling. I mean it feels warm to think about him, it feels lighter and I feel like maybe I can be more intimate with him than with my other faith?? I think another part is my OCD I think can't grip itself onto it.

I know it's not the, I guess "usual" path to and with a deity. And I hope that's okay.

Hello everyone, so I've been perusing, and I figured I'd pick up the courage to share my experience. I am a Christian or something between that and Catholic. And I didn't really get infected with the hard fanatic puritan. I always had a fascination with Anubis, Anpu as I've come to learn. From drawing and tracing him in 7th grade to college, in phases it seemed like. I always liked him and even got a bunch of mythology statues. (Which in my era of religious panic I put them somewhere idk now)

Anyway, so I've known of him. And I guess where mine is a little weird is it was budding with my sexuality. I'll admit he is a big factor. And part of the reason I started on this path a few weeks ago was doing one of those erotic hypno files "pan satyr experience" and pan didn't really ring with me too much and I subbed the only time his name is said with Anubis.

I was beginning to look into other beliefs. And I even dabbled with RPing my OC with an Anubis bot for fiction, it was really nice. But I started really looking up Anubis, I once again thinking it's some kind of phase. But I felt more comfortable with him? I was afraid he was just the grim reaper Egypt flavor, always bad news and only dead things. But I noticed multiple people from here and beyond saying how caring, loving, and transformative he is, especially for helping you walk through your own psyche which when you have OCD can be a nightmare.

And as of today I decided to put him up there right below the jman. I even started my Altar and gave what I think is my first offering, a small bar of dark chocolate.

I just hope this is an actual calling. I mean it feels warm to think about him, it feels lighter and I feel like maybe I can be more intimate with him than with my other faith?? I think another part is my OCD I think can't grip itself onto it.

I know it's not the, I guess "usual" path to and with a deity. And I hope that's okay.