Avoiding chest workouts

I’m about to get back into fitness and when I was into it I avoided chest workouts like the plague because I didn’t want a bigger chest.

If I work on my chest Pre top surgery then will it just end up making me clockable because of the muscle build up?

For reference I don’t have a chest that is non passable when i’m binding but i’m wondering if I should just continue to avoid chest workouts or I should start doing them again.

I’m not knowledgeable but I avoided them because I believe it would make me even more dysphoric seeing the results show up.

This is the only area I avoid working on, besides back because I hated back day lol

Should I start doing them or avoid it?