If life is meaningless…

Why keep going??? We know life is meaningless and we will never have an answer to why we’re here I honestly don’t see a point to living… Yeah you could say death is pointless too but at least I’d be at peace I have existential ocd and depression. Been thinking this way for years now.. Thinking about ending it because this way of thinking is not gonna end. I’ve awakened and I see through the matrix. I will not be deluded into religion. I simply cannot believe religion, unfortunately I really hate that I’ve awakened Honestly I’m ready to go.